i suddenly feel the need to blog.. i want to i need to.. oh dear.. i miss my old life.. i feel like.. a misserable old lady.. midlife crisis dah ke hoii?? or maybe it's just the pms talking..

so.. alot has happened since my last update.. i am now happier at the office (new deparment)..  minus the crazy people out of my new department which i have to face and deal with everyday..

but today... todayyyy is black wednesday (because all of us are wearing black today and the fact that many people testing my patience since morning) i have to deal with big old bullies.. and most of the bullies are ladies.. yes.. woman, lady, old woman, old lady.. diorg ni pikiaq aku ni budak baru.. dia taktaw aku dah keja sni for 7 and a half bloody years! haha.. takpe.. layan kan aje..

jadi kusut jadi pening.. bukak fb lagi pening. with all this hate all this stupid people commenting about breastfeeding and calling it disgusting.. when they have this naked beach and people making out in public.. tak plak hang kata disgusting nampak anu korg smua! buduh tak skolah..

dengan masalah donia segala laa gua peninngg peninnggg.. which lead me to merapu here today.. and now aku rasa malas nak menaip dah. so, the end. kbai.

reminiscing - Kia Peng

Bila dengar "Kia Peng" banyak kenangan lalu kat ingatan.. kenangan membesar. Ya. dulu Kia Peng banyak rumah. KLCC tak wujud. Situ lah tempat membesar saya dari baby sampai umur 6 tahun.. lepas tu pindah Selayang.. so kampung jadi rumah.. bandar jadi kampung.. paham ke tak?? haha..

I was born of course in a hospital.. tapi lepas tu hidop lah saya sebagai seorang baby di Kia Peng. Tadika di Kindergarten Fatima.. (alaa yang sebelah St. John tu..) Kalau ke Kindergarten naik van sekolah. Ingat lagi 1st day.. takot and tak reti berkawan.. duduk statik je dalam van until a girl (which i tak ingat hape dah namenye..) tegur and we became school bus buddies.. bila sampai kindy.. lain2 kelas so berpisah lah kami.. dengan janji.. balik nanti jumpa uncle sama2 depan pintu kindy..

Di kelas.. i made friends with minah mat salleh bernama Sharon ke Shelly.. ya Allah sumpah aku dah hilang ingatan.. hahaha.. last2 kitorang jadi besties dalam kelas.. pegi toilet mesti bersama2.. tukang teman.. haha (berhabuk english zaman kindy.. maklum laa kawan ngan mat salleh.. wakakakaka.. ok lawak) hari khamis is hari pool.. ingat lagi baju mandi berwarna biru metallic.. my favourite. and my only swimsuit..haha.. hari khamis kena bawak towel and baju mandi.. sangat teruja..

Nampak tak.. sebut kia peng habes segala citer sampai kluaq dari rumah kat kia peng cite nya.. back to the main topic..

 ini view from jalan masuk ke kia peng.. on the right.. u can see istana terengganu..

 dulu jalan tak seluas ni.. and tak seterang ni.. banyak kucing-kucing terkorban kat jalan ni dulu.. sobs..

this is the main  gate to my kampung which is now an office.. owned by paremba.. dulu it had 2 gates. satu gate masuk and the other one (paremba dah tutup) untuk keluar..depan tu dulu ade semicircle shaped garden.. Tah (my arwah nenek) tanam orchids.. cantik-cantik bunga nya..

and at the back we used to have, ducks, angsa 2 ekor yang suka kejar and gigit orang, anak ayam warna warni, ayam serama.. which later died dimakan anjing liar.. lepas tu cage besar tu diganti kan jadi cage kucing.. itu years after Tah meninggal rasanya.. depan pagar batu ni pulak actually ada longkang besaq.. bila hujan berhenti and air tinggi.. abang sha'ari (driver Ki yg 1st) suka bawak me and kak yong buat boat kertas main kat situ.. haha.. and he made us a swing.. bawah pokok ciku.. pon best main petang2..  sometimes abg shaari wld buy us toys.. he came to my wedding tapi sayang tak sempat jumpa pon.. :(

on the right side of this building ada kawasan padang yang luas which we used to play rounders.. dan selalunya tennis ball yang kitorang budak2 kecik pukul akan tersasar masuk istana terengganu.. kakaka.. kena laa mintak permission masuk and ambik.. 2 3 kali laa kalau time main.. sampai kan maid istana dah tau and selalu tolong baling je balik dari sebelah tembok..

Blakang rumah ada longkang lagiiii besaq.. dah macam sungai ghopenye.. air sgt laju.. kami budak2 memang tak merasa laa nak ke situ. dilarang sama sekali..

and part paling best kalau bosan2 dulu.. pegi bawah pokok ciku tu and kutip biji saga yang banyak jatuh situ.. tah ape nak buat.. takde motip.. tapi mcm cantek je.. kutip la. haha.. or bila bosan2.. pegi ke padang blakang cari mata kucing yang dah masak.. kutip bawak masuk.. kadang2 petik makan je kat situ jugak.. lol.. Tah tak pernah marah.. and kalau bosan2 lagi..  pegi laa bertenggek kat reban belakang tu tengok ayam.. haha..

banyak sangat aktiviti bila bosan.. explore sekeliling rumah.. i miss kia peng.. dulu takde KLCC.. by the time ade KLCC arwah Ki dan Tah pon dah takde.. klu tak sure jadi aktiviti wiken.. cucu2.. hehe..

rindu the good old days.. now i feel old.. haha.. chiao.

merapu baek punya. LOL.

lepas baca satu entry noe.. tetibe trase nak confess kat angin.. tulis meghapu like ada orang pedulik ape cite ko.. but lantak lah. aku syok sendiri pon syok sendiri lah. haha.. lama dah sebenarnya hidop berbloging ni.. cuma aku bukan tahap jadi pemes blogger sbb blog aku tak best mana pon. pernah dlu satu tahap jadi manusia poyo yang excited dengan komen dan followers.. bajet pemes ke hape.. ahh lantak.. tu zaman baru nak naik. tapi bagos laa tak glemer pon. bagos laa tak ramai baca aku meghapu yang boleh mengundang orang muntah darah kemeluatan benci dan roll mata.. haha.. biar kan biar kann.. the best part pasal blogging ni is bila kita berjumpa dengan kawan2 baru yang sometimes lebih rapat dengan kita compare to our real friends in the real world.. alhamdulillah.. so far saya sangat sayang dengan kawan2 blogger yg masih rapat dan masih berhubung. tenkiu korang walopon kite berjumpa only once in a blue moon.. huhu..

twitter.. twitter sometimes boleh jadi penjahanam hidop sekiranya kite terlalu mengikut perasaan, emosi dan stress bile menaip. bila marah ke meluat ke tak suka ke farney ke.. semua nak cepat2 ambik fon and tweet. no. not good. especially bila ada manusia2 batu api yang cuba melaga kita. ramai yang macam tu.. tunggu je masa untuk menjatuhkan kita. so hati2 or do what i did. tutup mata and delete my account. at first i thought i coudn't live without ny twitter.. but as time goes by.. and cuba habes kan masa dengan perkara realiti.. alhamdulillah ku babaikan account twitter.

facebook pon pernah deactivate dlu.. sebab anasir jahat yang takde keje stalk status aku and buat bahan. but lepas tu activate balik cuma kurang untuk update status but instead lebih byk share lagu, video or link2 menarik. jangan ingat retis saja yg mendapat perhatian manusia dengki dan papamamarazi.. ahkak yg tak pemes ni pon tak kurang menjadi mangsa..

moral? takde moral dari citer ini.. kan dah kata nak merapu jek. grrr.. kbai.

from the lowest floor to the highest floor..

it was all unexpected and unplanned.. i thought HR would never call me again for an opening in any other department since i rejected the last opportunity (they wanted me to become an account exec which was never ever my interest.. hee..) so i got a call from HR.. we had a no-so-short chitchat.. and the same week.. was called for an interview with my future boss..

the next day i replied to HR saying that i agree to accept the job.. so here i am now.. from a call center to the Legal Department doing something that i am not familiar with at all.. no.. not promoted.. gaji still the same.. kerja kuli jugak.. but what's most important is.. nak mulakan hidup baru.. dengan orang baru yang tak hold grudges and tak cop kita this and that.. i want to proof to those people that i am a better person than what they always say i was..

the 'best' part was when they said "pergi nanti bawak lah yg baik2 je.." as if i was gonna brag bad things about them.. sorry but i am not like you. and the other person said.. "what's pass is past" but.. tak sempat2 blah.. the 1st day i started my new job dia dah buang kita from anything and everything related to the office..

yang tak tahan tu.. bila kelab kakitangan bagi yearly soulvenior.. obviously mine dapat kat department lama.. bila tanya dengan laju sipolan tu jawab. takde! nama fara takde dalam list! ehh rase nak meletup kat situ gak!

nasib ada member pegi tengokkan.. nama still listed kat department lama tu kot! sekarang ni sape yg masih berdendam.. sape yang busuk hati? me or you? be a good leader.. if people hate you.. there must be something wrong.. jangan harap orang bawahan je berubah. tak semestinya kita berkuasa kita sentiasa betul.. i do not know what my future will become.. but yang penting aku bersyukur meninggalkan orang yang bermuka2. 

ok tu saje. sekian. haha.. Assalamualaikum.

kids night - yukids

Haritu kami adhoc pi bawak anak2 ke yukids terus roger naddynad.. and kebetulan dia pon memang nak bawak tadda jalan2.. so met up at paradigm mall..

Yang ni kanak-kanak paling excited malam tu...

Then later that day decided to go for steamboat at ss15.. Kapten steamboat & grill nama kedai tu .. itu citer in another entry. Daa.. assalamualaikum. 

The lost of a father..

2014 had been a great year to some people but for me.. well.. not a great year perhaps.. bapak passed away at the end of year 2014.. yes. he passed away on his youngest sister's birthday and a day after his.. anniversary.. when mak passed away.. everything changed.. my perception changed and my life changed.. i made a  promise to myself to give my best to bapak.. not to regret what i would miss when his turn comes..

bukan nak kata i was perfect.. tapi alhamdulillah.. boleh kata kan i accomplished many things.. most people think i neglected my dad.. but.. it doesn't matter to me.. what they think.. yang penting is Allah knows what i did for him. i spent more time around him coz i know.. bapak dah tua with macam2 sickness.. so i need to make the best of the time left to be with him..

macam mana eh nak put into words.. sebenarnya kami selalu bawak bapak pergi sini sana.. jalan2 makan2 tapi kami memang takde war2 kat org ape kami buat.. kami rajin ke selayang.. tido sana or kalau tak tido sana pon.. on weekdays after work pegi sana.. benda2 macam ni to me is my obligation as a daughter towards my father.. i always said to husband.. i tak suka bagitau sesapa.. kalau boleh mmg taknak ckp kat sapa2 sbb nanti macam tak ikhlas and macam buat with purpose nak bgtau org.. biar laa org tak tau.. yg penting Allah tau.. tapi..

Tapi.. bila kita niat ikhlas macam tu.. rupanya ada yang fikir kite tak banyak ada dengan bapak tak banyak tolong dan bawak sini sana etc.. luruh hati bila kami hanya 2 beradik pon ada yg cuba compare bapak sayang siapa lebih.. pada malam bapak tengah nazak.. few hours before dia pergi.. Only my husband knew how i cried so hard in the car and how saddd i was that moment.. i went inside.. and i cried im bapak's ears sambil ingatkan bapak untuk mengucap 2 kalimah.. tak. Saya tak baca yassim. Haritu saya  uzur.. dissapointed jugak tak dapat baca kan yassin untuk bapak.. tapi tetap baca mana yamg termampu..

Ribuan terima kasih buat keluarga dan kawan2 yang membantu.. keluarga.. ofcourse kami berterima kasih yang tak terhingga.. tapi kawan2 yang datang.. tolong dari bilik mayat.. ke masjid dan ke kubur.. ya Allah.. doa kami semoga Allah berkatilah kalian semua.. terharu teramat sangat.. kaylel datang sewaktu mandi jenazah.. asri, mizi datang ke mssjid.. mizi kaylel sambung mencangkul tanah.. ya Allah aku teramat terharu..

Hanya bermula dengan perkenalan di kelab MyVic.. tak sangka korg akhirnya jadi kawan yang betul2 kita perlu hargai.. terima kasih yang tak terhingga..

Terima kasih juga pada yang sempat snap gambar sekitar pengkebumian..

 Alhamdulillah dengan bantuan pak lang amy sepupu bapak.. dapatkan van jenazah tentera.. dan escort jenazah keluar dari traffic jam.. dan selamat tiba do masjid kanpung sungai tua bahru pada waktu solat zohor.  Dan di solatkan oleh ramai orang.. termasuk sahabat2 baik bapak..

 

 

 

Pernah seseorang kata.. bila seorang ibu dapat tau anaknya sakit dia berdoa supaya Allah tidak ambil nyawa anaknya.. tapi bila ibubapa dalam kesakitan anak2 senag2 kata redha dengan ketentuan dan tarik lah nyawanya.. dan mengatakan anak yang berfikiran macam ni teruk sbb senang2 nak makbapak nya pergi. Pada saya.. selagi kita tidak berada di situasi bapa atau ibu itu sakit teruk kita takkan tau. Bila dalam situasi baru kita tau kenala.. anak tu.. baru lahir.. belum puas melihat dunia maka ibu tak sanggup membiar kan anak pergi terlalu awal.. tapi situasi org tua kita.. kite redha kan pemergiannya sebab kita sayangkan mereka.. bukan sbb tak sayang.. kita tak sanggup tgk penderitaan diorabg.. sebab diorang dah tua.. ole sebab itu kita kata sekiranya itu ketentuan mu.. itu yang terbaik maka ambil lah nyawanya dan bawa pergi ke tempat yang lebih baik.

Jangan cepat kite nak buat assumption sekiranya kita masih lagi ada kedua org tua.. instead. Cherish them while u still can..

Baking!

currently tengah mabuk with baking.. i wanna bake everything! haha.. so.. ayden's birthday i made a kitkat and M&M's cake... no.. it's not originally my idea.. so i made moist choc cake and butter cake and decorated it with lotsa kitkat and m&m's..

 

and on faris's birthday pai ordered the same design but this time i made only 1 type of cake which is the moist choc cake.. and alhamdulillah the kids loved it..

 

 

 



 

for enquiries can email me at farinali@gmail.com

 

 

 



how to store your ebm and safe space

Ok here's a tip on how to store your ebm in the freezer and save space.. the best milk storage accroding to my own experience is the autumnz breast milk storage bag (7oz) is the best to use with this method.. the material is thick and not easy to tear.. (autumnz sila baya gua ye.. promote ni.. kui3x) plus the double zip lock makes it even safer and not easy to leak.

 

 

1. fill the bag with your ebm. the best is to fill the 7oz bag with maximum 5oz of milk.. more than 5oz would make the bag puffy and not easy to store. i usually keep 3oz or 3.5oz or 4oz the max in 1 bag.

 

 

2. after filling up the bag..press the air out as in the picture.. press out as much air as u can and make sure not to spill the milk!

 

 

 

then zip lock the bag.. and double check to make sure it is pressed and locked tight.

 

3. lay the bag flat when you put in the freezer the 1st time.

 

as u can see in the picture.. there is a bubble forming at the base.. this means that there are still some air trapped in the bag. but it's ok.. once the milk is already hard.. u can start stacking your ebm and save your space. here are some ideas on how you can stack your flattened ebm storage bag..

 

gambar credit dari blog mamapalace

 

 



gambar credit dari blog mishawads

 

 

happy ebm storing mommies! moo~

 

Happy 5th Birthday to Ayden!

Venue : Atok's place

Date : 05 October 2014

Occasion : Ayden's 5th Birthday Celebration

 

Let the pictures do the talkin.. moi.. busy mode.. hihi..

 

 

 

 

 

 

Cerita Raya 2014

 

since dah lambat sangat nak buat entry raya.. upload gambar yang ada aje lah.. Raya tahun ni agak meriah.. lagi-lagi sebab nak cover from last year yang tak brapa nak sempat beraya sini.. sebab dah ter travel time raya.. hehe.. ter sangat.. gambar di atas adalah sebahagian kecil family member belah mak.. seronok bila dapat gather ramai-ramai macam ni.. especially with cousins yang gila-gila happening! this year beraya belah husband so bila sempat masuk family photo mcm ni memang tak laa terkilan sangat.. hehehe..



 

 ini lah bff dari zaman sekolah.. geng AT memasing dah beranak pinak tapi kitorg still in touch.. alhamdulillah.. bfforever!

ok gambar kat bawah ni adalah gambar bilik mengepam kami di office.. and these are some of the mommies yang mengepam.. ada 2 org yang not in the picture.. kak sasa an kak pajilah from jim project..

 ni laa jadinya bila daoat batang penyapu  monopod.. kui3.. mak-mak meroyan..

dari kiri depan syura;anak 2, emy;anak 1, Na;anak 2, moi..

blakang kiri cidot;anak 1, Su;anak 3, lisa; anak 3 & Jiha; anak 2

 

 

haa gitu laa cter nye..semua umur2 lingkungan late 20s ke middle 30s.. ahaks..

syukur sangat dapat jumpa geng mommies yg sangat supportive dan informative ni.. tak pasal-pasal jadi close and share lots of information on kids, family and even recipies.. hehe.. kami from the same company and building tapi memasing project and unit dan tingkat lain-lain..

ni makanan masa buat jamuan raya kami-kami.. potluck.. tp gua tak bawak apape..bawak peruts je.. sebab anak tak sehat sebelum tu.. tak dan nak masak apapo huhu.. ok lah layan.. daa..