minggu yang muram durja..

i dreamt of mak few days back.. i dunno why.. but i feel so down after that.. until today.. rasenye sbb lame sangat kot dah simpan? tak lepas2 my true feeling.. the true sadness.. i miss mak so much.. tuhan je tau camne rindunye.. *mate berkaca ni* yesterday mase balik keje.. gadoh skit ngan bobo mcm2 hari2 biase suami isteri kan.. tp tah.. emo sgt plak.. suddenly rase sedih teramat2 and shed tears.. bilke dgr lagu.. lagu happy pon bleh nangis.. ade ayat "gone" "not here" "mum" "mak" trus lagi banjir..

rindu mak sgt2..

the dream.. dlm mimpi haritu.. *maybe sbb tringat2 sgt pasal bday party ayden ni takut tak dpt settle terbawak ke mimpi kot* pastu mimpi.. mak was still here with us.. mak found out that kitorg nk buat bday party for ayden.. dan2 haritu gak mak trus panggil ramaiiii sgt org.. mak buat kenduri doa selamat untuk ayden.. ramai fmly datang.. mak was there.. but i didn't see her face.. i just knew it was her.. she didn't say anything.. it's like .. i understood every body gesture that she made.. it's like the body is doing all the talking.. i can't see her face.. it felt good to feel her beside me.. it was a long dream.. well it felt long.. tapi tatau laa kan.. lepas haritu.. until today.. sensitip gaban.. tgh dok diam tibe2 meleleh air mata kasih.. huhu.. hmm.. rindu mak.. :((

later lah..chiao~